Ophelia.

2009-11-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

Find me @ ophe.onsugar.com. Better quality pictures!

2009-11-16T10:22:00.001+08:00

These are love.

2009-11-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

Feeling cynical. In the back of my mind there is smth to blame.

2009-11-15T21:56:00.001+08:00

Oops its my only way to ease the anger within. On job hunt tmrw..

2009-11-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

Had enough shopping for 3 consecutive days, dead beat. I swear no shopping till the following week. Fareast, bugis, marina sq, citylink, fareast, parkway ever since o's came to a halt. Saw quite a number of friends within the 3 days. And so after much effort and obstacle I hunted all needed for prom and xxtra stuff. $2 masks, accessories, tights, heels and pullovers. Searched so hard for heels cuz all the high heeled shoes i luv are way too high. Sexy but naw! Well, as for dressing will remain a mystery to yall for now. My legs aching badly and I think I need rest. Feel like working now since tyy has not returned but I am afraid couldnt spent enough time with him after he returns argh! Ps. I admit i am carried away but i won't forget about exercising though, my target: ms world figure.

2009-11-12T23:16:00.004+08:00

Together with py to xy's crib for hair session. Did our curls with our utmost as first timers. Fareast for shopping. Bugis for manicure appt and purchased sum cheap goodies. Just the start of my life.

2009-11-11T22:40:00.004+08:00

One day ohsogood, another day msdevil. Disappointing, but hey, look on the bright side I finally realized how realistic friendship is. A second repeat. I am done. No hate no memories.

Grainy

2009-11-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

2009-11-11T21:23:00.001+08:00

Likin bep.

2009-11-10T17:17:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow 3pm. 

Free like a birdie! 

Kiss goodbye to textbooks and ready to start a new phase of life man.

Baby plz come back fast celebrate with me.

2009-11-09T15:59:00.001+08:00

Was supposed to head back to sch for consultation. But at the last min smth went wrong that caused me to wakie at six and had fucking discomfort in the abdomen. Luckily no exams today. Went to docs and did urine test and it was uti which I alr suspected. Had to be under medication for days. Anyway, two more days and finally done with O's. By the list below you could tell i am excited alr. Heh :>

Top 10

2009-11-09T15:48:00.001+08:00

1. manicure extensions
2. classic bag
3. lip gloss nude
4. couplelab customised name necklace(italised)
5. black eye shadow
6. large loose curls
7. intricate cut out heels
8. rings and more rings
9. hot pink laced bra
10. contacts
11. anything tht catch my eye
12. anything tht catch my eye

3/21

2009-11-08T19:37:00.003+08:00

Is armpit hairs a necessity? If you ask me, to guys i'll say. Won't you be more gross out to see a sparky clean shaven pit then a bush?

plus/minus

2009-11-07T00:47:00.003+08:00

A momentarily rush of irritation fill me. Don't know how to put it to make it sound much of a matter. That friend just didn't bothered at all. It's not that I didn't make any initial move but look whose so busy to even chat on phone once and didn't bothered to call back alrdy, compared to someone whose taking O's this year. It doesn't even have to matter whether whose to blame for not taking the initiative cuz friendship doesnt work this way. Friendship isnt also about who backing out or leaving sliently or keeping quiet to flaws. I don't get u.

Anw bf just called which I did not expect. Hence it sent me onto cloud9. Sadly today is just the second day out of a total of twenty-one!! mygod.

2009-11-05T14:30:00.000+08:00

Tyy just flied to Thailand, it will be 3 weeks plus plus counting from today. There is still plenty of unsolved cases and unsaid words in between, alot of loose gaps that I want to fill up but i dont know where to start and how to settle. Talking makes no sense to you, whywhywhwy. Five days left before O's offically ends. 2 subjects till freedom!

2009-11-02T22:53:00.003+08:00

Feeling at my lowest, nevertheless im still workin hard. ya'll know the more u give the more u hurt yourself. Broken heart can never be amended despite how u piece the puzzles back to shape. The lines is still there. And will forever be. What appears to be convincing may be just a scam. Maybe the time is not right and a foolish blunder to make. Gosh. Think again, all just because I'm afraid to see a replay of my worst fear. People learnt from past experiences and will try every way to shirk from the old mistakes. So sometimes y'all gotta accept others shortcomings. That is whats so called love. Many a times people thought they knew, but actual fact they do not. And find other matter to blame. Its very true it starts from home.

2009-11-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

Was able to catch up with tyy on friday. To his crib on friday to find him, then we walked out to have my late dinner along kovan. Too buried in our own busy life, such a simple get-together like this makes my day.

Vanilla twilight

2009-10-30T13:32:00.001+08:00

I think I under-performed for my maths paper after looking through the qns paper again. I let myself down! In fact its manageable. Depressed. Not in the mood to mug for the remaining papers, feeling all hopeless and fking angry now that I found out smth while browsing blogs.

2009-10-28T20:10:00.000+08:00

Done with maths papers. Next to come, ss and chemistry. Ss/hist which I intend to flunk..there is no way I can squeeze all 3years of chaps into my head especially stalin lar, hitler lar. But thinkabout it, i feel bad. Thickskin of me to forsake humans despite 6 subjs. Gaa all your fault, pea sized brain!

2009-10-26T21:40:00.000+08:00

Sat I head down plaza sg meet xinyu and her sis. Benjamin joined us aftermath. Motive is to take a look at the suave lee min ho but after hours of cramping and wait, the whole event was cancelled. Had hobson's choice we went window shopping and settled down at starbuck and chat till the sun went down. English papers..checked. Maths paper 1 tmrw! Stressful period now, but it will be over soon! Boy asked me to come out find him, which was so tempting to hear cuz I think he misses me. I resisted reluctantly. Today, smth happened to him idk wat, he refused to tell me why he wasn't in any mood, then my imagination started to go wild. Always like that, expected. I am learning to live with it.

2009-10-22T19:27:00.002+08:00

First practical paper...checked! And yes, I didn't fumble on lighting up the bunsen burner. I was worried sick I will cuz it will be plain dumb. Coming up is english and maths. So much work ahead of me. So little time. Wanna get sum floral tube topz, heelz and bagz and a good chestnut, high n low lights and long bob thats shoulder length. Fantastic right. Simple, casual sleek and sophiscated look for me. Yay. Exams puhhh-lease fly past soon cuz I see a need for us to draw closer and improve. Afterall, communication is the best tool.

2009-10-20T11:16:00.000+08:00

What's worst? His laosie old nokia break down again. One of the last things I want that to happen. esp during this period of time. Great, we can't contact, can't locate each other, I abhor.

2009-10-16T18:10:00.003+08:00

Been spending much time by myself for hours and hours cooped up in my room. The only time I can be seen in my living room was meal/breaks. Studies never lull my mind away from anything. The more time spent alone with the silence the more distance i am from reality. Like silence could take me back to the past back to every single detailed of history. It seemed that I've lost touch of my status that I gotta mull to double confirm.Seemingly like i've channelled through the passage of time. Only been a week since I saw him but it felt longer. Friday is always a happy day for all girlfriends of ns men but not for me today. I just want back my 20 bucks. Yay, sat and sun meant priviledged and flashforward da best shows eva. I wish the duration of the shows aint that short. Kan le bu shuang.

2009-10-13T18:31:00.002+08:00

Typical sat I've spent all thanks to him. Forget it. Spent a whole 5 hours at Nec ytd bored death. O's starts next thur. I feel nothing but anxiety. 3 things in my mind now. O levels, holidays, tyy. Distance makes the heart grow fonder, is it?

2009-10-13T18:08:00.003+08:00

There is sum error in my blog which I can't explain. I cannot find the right box to type. And the toolbar is missing. Messy codes here and there. And it writes hack. Watever. Change to tumblr?

2009-10-09T17:38:00.001+08:00

Total turn offs: flirts who are aware of their own actions but still ignored. In simpler words, shameless. Girls who comment on how others copy their dressing when their dressing is a trend. Ppl who accepts challenging task volunteerily and readily but complain a 100 and 1. Fake plastics and fake personalities, in other words, unnatural.

2009-10-09T12:06:00.001+08:00

2009-10-09T01:21:00.002+08:00

Miraculously after having macs the day after, my sore throat went away. I wasn't the only one. Plz eat more fries and drink more coke if you're sick cuz it may help? Anywayz, town today, bugis, iluma, haji lane with phy. Fun and laughter as usual. Lovin the peace and atmosphere of iluma. We left with loots, satisfied with our day. I ought to be more frugal, can't withstand temptations. Saturday another outing, woohoo. 2 weeks didn't see him liao. tyy sumtimes v cute can't stand. wish every moment could be like this..

2009-10-06T12:26:00.001+08:00

Could not verbally express myself in lucid manner due to a bad sore throat. I am sick.

Pictures.

2009-10-04T19:47:00.003+08:00

Other rubbish are on fb! WONG SHIYUN FASTER UPLOAD THE PICS!

Not the end, yet.

2009-10-02T19:30:00.007+08:00

Note to self: Plz stop peeling your finger/nails or no manicure.

Today is (finally) the last day of our sec school education. Though 4D and 5B wasn't my favourite class throughout the five years in cvss, I got this weird instinct that I will miss school lessons. But I thought I always looked forward to this day. I ain't complex, humans are. Spent about two years in this class, ok, more or less cultivated sum feel-lings and made some sweet, awa funneh friends.(You know who) Thanks to all the friends in sch who guided me rendered me your help when I need it. Wished all of you all best of luck for your O's, yours sincerely(L) Check pix on fb, waiting for shiyun to tag!
Muttons to midnight keeps me mugging. I found a good motivator.

2009-09-30T18:15:00.001+08:00

Two solid hours of poa
In addition to the hot gruelling weather-buey tahan.
Being studious, I planned to stay for mock paper.
All the guai kias gave a miss
So I gave in to peer influence.
Daiso to shop and release exam stress
Purchased flora basket, diy laces+ribbon.
Saw alot other cute+unique stuff but had to resist.
O's end fast I will get a job and all that will be mine!
Oh boy. I smell it.

Friends.

2009-09-29T16:27:00.008+08:00

I believe in sticking to my own values and trusting my inner thoughts. Sometimes I disagree but the best way to solve is to keep quiet and stay neutral. This way, you shall stay out of quarrels and accusations isn't it? Myob is key.

Here you go.

2009-09-27T17:45:00.001+08:00

(Selected ones only)

2009-09-26T21:56:00.002+08:00

One.Collection of my lenses
Two.Tyy's place 2 wait for his return
Three.Stupid me gang up with his dad bluff him
Four.Failed cuz I was forgetful enough to destroy evidence(my slippers)
Five.Home
Lazy upload pix. Soon.

Disappointment.

2009-09-24T19:42:00.004+08:00

Nearing the end of the week. Been a while since he booked in camp and got back to stay in. Sad to say, it means very little time together. But, its been ages since we spent quality time. Past few months I have been out of mind, asking for perfection. Now perhaps I've realized. Even disappointed to hear that and that assured me that I wasn't wrong in giving expectations cuz his mom shared the same with me too. The last time we did everything tgt kept rewinding in my head unknowingly against my will. I miss you within my control. Hate that I do.

Okay set everything aside for now. Priority is study! Awaiting for the 1 week study break.

2009-09-21T15:24:00.001+08:00

Being natural is being yourself.

2009-09-20T22:42:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was town with phy. Trip to flea was cancelled. Only smth has not changed about her. She has not grown(taller) hahahah. Shopped for hours before heading back. I went hg do some mini shopping. Today, phy tempted me out again. We went ehub for her job application before we settle down at maccafe for some mathematics. Back home and out I go again with family to henderson bridge. Sights at all angles was a pictureque. The frustrating thing was my camera died on me after I reached there, coincidently! Maths=ohsosian. Phyllis=ohsofickle(Lol)

No nice peekcha oh boring..

Cupcakes by mother.

2009-09-18T14:41:00.006+08:00

Stomach giving me problems daily without fail. Just waffle alone for lunch. Lose of appetite. Great, now I wont have to worry about over-consumption. Gotta mug. Sunday's flea titan II here I come!

2009-09-17T17:07:00.001+08:00

Free mags for everyone today, April's issue though. I wish for free mags everyday. I start to wonder, since when for so long I smiled genuine. I don't know. Seriously need to refrain myself from sending 'crazy' msges to ...
I need a chill pill.

2009-09-16T17:16:00.003+08:00

Period+Gastric+Stomach flu=??
We talked and am glad we did. At least I know even if the world turn against me, there I have someone who I find best comfort in voicing out to. Smth I must say cuz its getting on my nerves. I abhor the lifestyle he is leading. What to do? Chided, no cure. Peaceful means, no avail. Sumtimes when things don't go your way, it just suck. Now I'm stuck in the middle.

2009-09-14T15:51:00.004+08:00

Left with 5 weeks before we took the papers which determine a place in ite or polytech. Last splint, no regrets.
I wanna know more about love. Cross my finger.

2009-09-13T14:43:00.003+08:00

Meaningless or not I can't decide. School reopens tmrw. Good and bad. Yesterday went to Sakura with tyy+family for lunch. Afterwhich they send us to amk hub for our movie, final destination4. We went separate ways aftermath becuz he wanted go gym. So I went town to shop. Alone!! I followed my heart and walk from chinatown to plaza sg after alighting from 147. Suprised that I fig out cuz i'mma street idiot.

2009-09-11T19:35:00.001+08:00

So dead cuz I've plenty of work undone. Regret to say, no much productive work done this holiday. Ophelia! wake up. its friday liao leh. I spent too much time vaining away in the mirror and adorning myself. Experiencing the blues now. Feel like smashing a vase at someone's head.

2009-09-10T12:53:00.003+08:00

Tried to get my fat ass up and went jogging but within just 10mins I surrendered. Wth I can't believe it my stamina dropped. Depressed by my weighing machine. Now then I understand why fleshy people lose their sense of fashion. Becuz alot of pretty clothes they cannot wear!!!

i am gonna try.
http://www.t-tapp.com/articles/flatstomach/

2009-09-08T23:30:00.003+08:00

Our cold war and conflicts ended. We signed a (temporary) peace treaty. I look forward to changes. I hope you comply to the terms of the treaty.

2009-09-07T20:18:00.001+08:00

I changed my mind. The lie sets me sobbing every now and then. Yet that tone of urs doesn't even contain any tinge of apology. I knew thr would not be peace. Am I too giving or wat? Right now even an infinity of fucks I swear wouldnt be able to ease me.

2009-09-06T13:00:00.003+08:00

Tyy promised me for movie this week. Hohoho! Finally we're outing. Its like 1039843628294 hours since.

2009-09-06T12:55:00.001+08:00

Desiring for a denim boyfriend blouse right now. Those selling in blogshops are nice but purchasing is a hassle! I think bugis is the ideal place to get.

"I not ah lian!"

Have to go!

2009-09-03T17:22:00.000+08:00

FLEA TITAN III

8D Dempsey Road
Date: 20th September (Sunday) and 21st September (Monday – Public holiday)
Time: 1pm to 7pm
How to get here:
There will be 4 shuttle buses (45 pax) from the Thai Embassy beside Lido (Orchard) to House Dempsey.
All age
Free admission

2009-09-02T17:01:00.000+08:00

Lackin of sleep and yet to catch up. No I can't go to bed till 11. My luv for accounts increases each day.

2009-09-01T15:10:00.003+08:00

Those ppl(like me) who had not done their best are in no position to whine and cry. Only thing to rejoice about was my accounts. I've improved, thks Celine :> Maths is a disappointment. Cannot help but feel that sting of jealousy!! Tyy went to his new vocation today, back to stay-in. Abit sian diao

2009-09-01T14:51:00.015+08:00

Flowers.

2009-08-31T16:32:00.003+08:00

BTW/happy teachers' day to all dedicated teachers.

2009-08-30T21:34:00.005+08:00

Outing with a good ole friend to town, get my bunch of engagement rose, had a good time!

/ps. words on th table not written/vandalized by me.
/pss. more n better pix on the way! :>
/psss. kidding. No one's engaging.

2009-08-28T22:46:00.002+08:00

Had posted 2 posts in just 24hours but I dont care. God damn it why do my past always have to come back to me whenever tension arise between the both of us. Those memories hold no meaning to me long ago. The stubborn herald which I thought would cease just won't. If life is written in a storybook, I will flip those pages back to those moments(which was totally unnecessary) and erase it. Right now, I've got many questions that are constantly running through my mind which I doubt I will get the answers to it any sooner. It is that unpredictable, like a storybook which you read till the climax then you realized the pages behind were missing. I hate suspense. I want to write my own story.

A mess

2009-08-28T15:05:00.001+08:00

2009-08-28T14:38:00.001+08:00

Do you know how it felt to be hollered at? Obviously not. This time I won't be sending chunky (emotional) phrases or exchanging with you any heart talks. My saliva had dried up from all that preaching. I just wanna leave you alone, to do whatever you wish to do, spent your entire time with your friends for all I care, anything but me. Consequently, be sure of what you want.

Tuition l8r. Bye.

Safetysuit-anywhere but here.

2009-08-27T19:24:00.004+08:00

Oh i'm so over the moon. To think that the oral pix discussion was abt science practical. Lady luck was with me today. In fact, it was hard work paid off! 1 offday tmrw, like finally. Chanced upon multiple blogs, it seemed like nude and sex is increasingly becoming less of a taboo. What will world be like in years to come? Walking down the streets of town naked with heels or sneakers alone? Think of it it tickles me!

Fatpocket/tumblr/twitter? I don't understand.

2009-08-25T15:37:00.005+08:00

Once the major exams come to a complete halt, dieting is the very first thing I'd do. My fat body is a total eyesore. Of course, dieting pairs with incessant exercise to work out. Miss Universe 2009 broadcast on the tv yesterday aspired me to work harder towards my goal. Very likely to change blog soon.

Watch it. Creative vid by mrbrown:>

2009-08-19T18:12:00.005+08:00

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Are you seeing it everywhere like I do?

2009-08-15T22:22:00.003+08:00

Boreeee-ing.
As usual, friday and sat were spent with tyy. Tyy bought takeaways for the hungry me since he needn't go camp. Rare of the heartless frig. Today was just another typical day slacking at home. As for my preparations for O's, working hard lately, be rest assured! Noe everyone ard me are very concerned esp those teachers who have known me for awhile seeing their effort touched me. Most importantly to prove to mum.
Kesha's tiktok & future love by KD is my current addiction. Check that out. :>

2009-08-13T17:23:00.002+08:00

It took me few hours of mental power before I managed to fight it off, pick up that pen and start working on tmrw's poa and comb sci examination. Oh boy, the internet is one dangerous addiction. Bye blogger, hello books.

2009-08-13T17:00:00.003+08:00

A GIF FOR YOU.

2009-08-11T14:32:00.007+08:00

Dread mondays. Whereby I got too carried away with the fun of my weekends, took for granted having tyy by my side now I feel luv sick and see blues. I h8 the fact that I have to study, like a kid whereby ppl could just go out as and when they like, return home as and when they wish. Most of all, they do not ever need to open any freaking textbooks or flip notez. Just cannot wait to grad.

Ok as for my three days long weekends..
Saturday had my tut, waited patiently for tyy to return from tekong field camp. Headed to his crib watch our fav jacky wu reality show. Didnt go out.
Sunday went to find xy and bar to mug only.
Monday is more fruitful. Tyy crib to wait for him prep and met yvonne before heading to town. We caught the 3D movie, up. Overall, average. Didn't really like the specs they gave, it gives me headaches. Alright then his friends tgt with yv's bf came we went to thomson rd for steamboat.

2009-08-09T21:02:00.004+08:00

Status: fatigued
Ps. Happy bday Sg!! Blog agn tmrw.

Attn to all salesperson out there.

2009-08-06T18:36:00.009+08:00

I was discussing with yx about the poor customer service, esp from the sales sector lately. Especially the way certain salesgirl or salesman treat students. Totally indifferent from how they treat adults. Students in school uniform are the main victims. Salesgirl are usually the guilty ones. Firstly, they rather provide service to adults than students. Either they think that students cannot afford or they are baised against students. Hello aint you students once too? Some salesgirl gave stupid faces to us students who enquire on their products like makeups or electronic devices. Are you looking down on us or what? You aint rich either or why'd you be here doing this low paid job. Can't we students put on makeup? Its not as if we put makeup in school or else there is nothing unreasonable, and why you care? Even if you do not agree, don't give that look. We cannot help but look down on you and your job if its not for your that attitude. Hey, we students afterall are still your customers, your primary source of income. We feed you and your family. So be thanksful and be polite, thank you. However I also do see some well mannered and hardworking salesperson who did not utter a word or display any unhappiness when given too much pressure and orders during work. Bless them!

"Don't bully us students. We're taught how to write complaint letters in school already."

2009-08-05T21:13:00.004+08:00

Everything takes two hands to clap. In relationship, one party must be more giving than the other to work out. Definitely won't remain for long before that party gets intolerable. Especially when that party is temperamental, like me.

2009-08-05T17:58:00.003+08:00

School had been gr8 with funny friends around. More then what I asked for. We waited for py super long for her to finish her dnt before we proceeded for kfc for cheeken. We talked and laughed like there's no tmrw. Final prelims officially starts tmrw. Feeling the rush of pressure now that I mention of it. Trying to suppress to avoid headaches. My stupid boy just prank-called me. Idiot idiot idiot, feeling like a fool now. But still, me kind of mizz him. I dunno how he lives without a mobile phone. I can't. Hopefully he report home fast.(and call me!!!!)

Good luck everyone.

2009-08-02T20:16:00.007+08:00

Sat was boring. Stayed home till evening to compass with parents to get baking equipment. Took mrt to kovan after to meet yy and his friend for dinner @ the hawker centre. Home nearing ten and off to sleep. Today two teachers put me aeroplane. Together with parents to my grandma hse play with aunt's baby.

2009-07-31T16:11:00.005+08:00

Welcoming the month of August because it is the time for a change of mobile! Craving for blackberry but Sony W705 I like too.

2009-07-31T15:36:00.004+08:00

2009-07-29T21:17:00.003+08:00

Headed to compass right after school to get some stuff including a dress which was love-at-first-sight.. Home and nap and just done with typing of two essays into mr arasu's page. Ok 90% of it was done by my sis. Due to the uncountable stack of work before me, I knew I am far behind time. Prelims are next week. Cannot help discouraging myself because right at this point of time my foundations are still impotent.

Of course it is hard for me to behave normally when what I had already told you a hundred and one times does not stay in your head. When all my expectations I set for you failed, when I had to abandon all my expectations for you how would I not feel frustrated, having to tolerate this. Not a grave matter to you, not worthy to make it affect us both, but I mean it. Everytime you would just use your craps and actions to humour and cheer me up and then just forget about it the next day. Though I laughed along doesnt mean I let it pass.
I want a change right now at this very instant.

Just to kill bore.

2009-07-27T16:15:00.006+08:00

Tuition in awhile. Bye.

2009-07-26T20:59:00.005+08:00

Saturday
Mood was at my worst. Thinking back now I wonder why. Went hgmall myself to walk after tuition because random me felt like being alone. Ironically when I am alone I hoped someone is there to accompany. After that then went yy's crib to find him. Watched some tv and had dinner. Back home early to catch F4.
Sunday
Almost home all day doing homework. Soccer live just now featuring Singapore team vs Liverpool. No idea why there is a need for this match. So obvious whose the winning team. Just the thought of school tmrw makes me want to SCREAM.

2009-07-24T22:30:00.006+08:00

Hectic week. Life is just all about studying, studying and more studying these days. No choice, O's are near. Encountered several things that created a downward twist to my mouth. However after recieving someone's note it really cheered me up and stopped me from feeling so empty, at least I know some cared. Thk you to the two;D Headed to hg mall with py for pepper lunch with her sis. Home we went after.

My long awaited weekend is finally here. I get to sleep afew hours more than usual, get to see dear yy which I did not get to see for a week. Only con is the gruelling long tuitions that have to be endured..

Racial Harmony Day.

2009-07-21T16:06:00.033+08:00

Being indian for a day.
Photos aplenty..(Fb too)

Mrs Scofield And Mrs Pattinson.

PY JJB STEALER. HAHA JK

2009-07-20T19:12:00.003+08:00

A brief sum up of my weekend. Saturday tuition in the morning. Boyf and his parents came to fetch me to orchard celebrate his sis birthday. They rent an apartment in a hotel there to celebrate for a night. Went back early, his relative drive us back. Ok it's obvious I didn't enjoy abit. Not in the right mood. So sorry..
Sunday headed to Sunita hse at late noon to get indian ethnic costumes. We chatted awhile before I left for home to go din with parents. He came at night to make up for ytd. And he went on to play my fb games. No idea what so nice abt mafia wars la. No action where got nice.
Today jocelyn accompd me to eat, and I went back to sch for oral convo one to one with Ms tan. After that Filzah helped us to do henna. Thanks!

2009-07-19T11:17:00.000+08:00

Oh well. I surrender.

2009-07-19T10:39:00.003+08:00

Could not stop the griefing. Everything seem less important.

Only bff, whom I can confide anything in no longer is. Yet that one who was always with me turn out to be so far apart. Where can I find comfort in pouring out all my shit? Am I supposed to come in terms with it? Is it smth I couldn't avoid?

2009-07-16T22:10:00.002+08:00

I've just posted up my answers on Mr arasu webpage. Surprised that I could score an A plus for my most hated subject. Though I did well this time(thanks lady luck) it is not gonna change my impression of humanities. I still h8 humans!
My eyes is failing on me now, cos it wants to close but it cant. It has started operating since 6am in the morning. My genius brain is sending impulses to my eyes to close. But mentally I still want to study my chemistry for tmrw!!

How?

2009-07-15T16:42:00.005+08:00

A relief that chinese oral is over. I fumbled!
It affected my mood, but yy say its no use brooding.
I tell ya, if I were to fumble all my written exams, wo ke yi go die suan le!!

Off to mug..

2009-07-13T16:16:00.002+08:00

Finished my dpa in a rush. I doubt I will get selected, didn't put in much effort and mind into doing it. Bad news is, O'level chi oral tmrw. Good news is because of that, no asp! Am so worried sick for my orals k.

It dawned on me during maths tuition ytd when I was doing a probability qns on odd and even numbers. Eventually I realized n understood why me and my sis are always at loggerheads.

Ophelia, odd
Emmeline, even

Mundane weekend

2009-07-12T20:39:00.004+08:00

Began my weekend with two tuitions till late noon. YY came fetch me to tuition centre cos he was nearby. After tuition ended I took bus to his crib to find him. Watched the tv, ate dinner. And continued watching Harry Potter and chamber of secrets. Home I went after. His mother gave me some ngoh hiang to bring home. Spent almost the whole day at home today, with a maths tuition in the morning, and an afternoon nap just now.

The O on my keyboard is faulty! Hard time typing the letter o. Why OOOOOOO!?

2009-07-10T16:47:00.003+08:00

Ran 2.4km and I passed!
It was hell though.
Shiyun ran quite fast and I didnt wanna lose to her so she was my moltivation. Ms Chan is kind enough to share cab with four of us to cp because the rain is heavy. Took bus and I wasnt wet abit. Personally, good phrases does not necessary help to score well in compo. Learning and remember is one thing, fitting it into the sentence is another. It just acts as a bonus to your story. Reading does help in the way we write the story.

Just wna convey,
Right now, you should know how much I luv u.
Place some trust in me. I won't let you down.
You just like gold, too precious to give away, too pity to forsake
and too blessed to have you.
So sry, don't angry.

2009-07-10T15:53:00.003+08:00

Today is a bad day.
Lose alot of water through weeping.
If I had a bad day I won't sing a sad song.

Know my limits, know myself best.
Nothing done against my conscience.

2009-07-08T16:00:00.005+08:00

Each passing day is a step nearer to each and everyone's biggest fear. A paper that determines our future. This is stopping me from relishing and leading a typical life.

Luv, yy

2009-07-06T19:32:00.007+08:00

Sunday
Quarrelled with that idiot yy. Parents bring me for dimsum as a treat for youth day for bkfast cum lunch. Home and mug for long hours. Received yy's text: Don't quarrel alr la. Wan come out? So that's how we ended our quarrel. That's how idiot he is. Took bus to kovan meet with him, ivan and his gf. They intend to go lan shop, but I didn't want so went bowling. Played two matches, me and boyf lose to that couple. They went off, we went hawker centre to eat din. Aftermath we cabbed to hougang ave four to fetch a friend of his to atm to claim his money which she owed boyfriend. He came back to my place to use comp awhile while I mugged.

Monday
Holidays for youths. Don't seem like holidays for me! Met xinyu to amk library to mug. Had a hard time finding for seats with tables. We did hours of productive work with a fair amount of chatting! Satisfied. After mugging we went amk hub to get some stuff. Left her to go home, just as I was about to cab home dear gave me a call ask me wait for him, he was already on his way to amk. I waited for him at the bus stop and took bus back tgt. Dead fatigued today! Dental appointment later on still. Getting myself prepared for pain and blood.

I pretty much love life like this.

Yesterday.

2009-07-05T15:52:00.002+08:00

After two tuitions which ended only at four, I went home, prep and went hg mrt to meet my boy. We headed to Lido, to catch transformers 2. Lucky tix were available this time. Shopped around town before we took bus back. After a long journey of bumpy ride, we're finally 7th month. I only hope for less petty cum unnecessary arguments.

2009-07-03T13:39:00.002+08:00

Youth day celebration in school spells fun. Double thanks to teachers for the lil gifts and macdonald's bkfast treat. Next in line for today, maths tuition in like 2 hours time.

2009-07-02T16:11:00.004+08:00

I don't ever seem to get bored of listening to alternative rock.
Am no Lady Gaga fan. Her style is too weird to be unique.
Was drawn to fashion though.

2009-07-01T16:59:00.008+08:00

Just done with bloghopping multiple blogs till my eyes ached. Blame the excessive of self shots of sum bloggers and my dry contacts. Cannot wait for weekends, Saturday to be specific. Because my boy promised me transformers movie! He better get dha tix early! I think I've got the motivation to study already, after informed three months left it set a thunderous alarm ringing in my head. Hope I turn nerd and glue to studying like how I glue to the computer all day long from today onwards till the end of this year! All I wish for now is that poly will be my b'day present for next year. That will be the best I had. By then mummy will treat boyf to big feast.

2009-06-28T14:41:00.003+08:00

So, after tuition yesterday. Met boyfriend and we headed to Lido wanting to catch Transformers. Foolishly we queued up not aware that the tix for all timeslots were sold out until we noticed the info on a paper pasted on pillar. Clueless of where to go, we went fareast to have dins first. Took bus to Marina. Saw fireworks, think it is because of the ndp's. We shared ice cream at Anderson's after that, before we took bus back. Typical weekend. I cannot accept the fact that school is reopening tomorrow. Homework undone, maths test on first day of school reopen damn. If only I had friends which I could talk to everything under the sun, bitch and go gaga about anything in the world, I swear I will love school.
But currently this is not the case.

2009-06-24T13:15:00.003+08:00

I don't feel fat. I am fat.

Not big size kind, but technically I am putting on weight. I mean excess.
Everyone is saying that I am. Mother, father, boyfriend.
Even long-time-no-see phyllis noticed it.
Nabei. Gotta control my diet..must mind my consumption of food.
So tough and tiring. A hugggge sacrifice I have to make, not sure if I can keep up.

Disappointed with myself, I am lagging far behind in my studies,
I did not fufill my expectations I set for holidays. Fb is a distraction. I am gonna go study now. Tuition ytd, tuition tonight, tuition friday, tuition sat.

Pls tell me how,
Four tuitions a week. School has given mission-impossible amount of work. Four tutors gave me unreasonable amount of work too, expecting me to complete before they come.
When I don't, they started nagging: Hardwork comes sucess, if you dont put in effort blah..
Tell me should I cry or wat

2009-06-23T11:31:00.006+08:00

News announced most prolly no entension of hols=((((

Had a exciting dream last night that kept me in lalaland near to eleven today. I dreamt I was jin si cao!!! Told boyfriend and he asked: Den you dream you did what with Ju junbao?
Haha

2009-06-22T10:30:00.013+08:00

Go http://www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm vote to extend holidays(!)

2009-06-21T19:55:00.004+08:00

Tampines shopping with sis and mom on friday. Didn't get any stuff though some bags I saw was love at first sight.
Saturday, as usual was outing with boyf. Somehow we had commuication problem he thought I had tuition, but I don't. Waited for his reply damn long which pissed me off. End up headed to compass had lunch myself before meeting him. Met up with ivan and his gf watched Drag Me To Hell. Though I held on to him cos I was scared stiff, but I still insisted on ignoring him throughout the whole day. Weird yes? I just feel rather flustered at that moment, hard to control my temper. Drag Me To Hell was rather scary yet funny. Scary with most help from the loud sound effects. Watch it everyday you're gonna weaken your heart. I got scared like 4-5times, no surprise if I shit out green motion.

2009-06-18T17:20:00.002+08:00

Anybody who has a few days' temp job to recommend?
In need of cash. I don't even know where to find or what to do. Steal/rob? I can't be doin nothing. I h8 myself.

2009-06-17T15:01:00.002+08:00

Note to self: Ophelia, plz come in terms with it.

2009-06-17T14:31:00.002+08:00

Bored. Pesky sis is out.
Here I am, home alone listening to Akon's lonely.
And fed myself with cup noodles for lunch.
Pathetic, yes?

Also, my boy seem to be neglecting me (ok he has to work)
Note to self: Ophelia, plz come in terms with it. He is prolly busy.
And y'all know. He still has 1.5 year of ns to serve luhhhhz.

(Ps. Why are the guys and girls in lookbook all so suave so charming?)